
Ever had one of those days where God had to bang a message into your head? It's not that he told you something you don't know, it's just that he wanted to go "yoohooo, hellooooo! I'm still here! I'm still carrying you."
Well yea, I had one of those days on Tuesday.
Let's just say it got off to a rough start. The night before I had a bit of an emotional breakdown. Actually, it was one of those ridiculous
I'm-releasing-I-don't-know-how-many-or-which-emotions kind of breakdowns. If you put two and two together, it explains the
letter I wrote to myself.
Normally, I wouldn't share this. Being overly emotional is something I'm typically very embarrassed about. But this is a testimony I just have to share, because the next day things got a lot better.
First. My pastor's wife called me. Let me start by saying that she is not the type of woman who calls to chit chat. With anyone. She calls with purpose. Well, she said she was calling to find out how I was doing. Said she thought of me last night. Said she saw me crying, like something was wrong.
Whoa.
Yea. That's what I thought. Well I told her that she was right, and she spent the next 30 seconds (a slight exaggeration, but she
was quick) telling me that sometimes people like us with the desire to change the world deal with that kind of emotional stress. She told me that it will all be okay and to call her if I need anything. I got off the phone thinking about how amazing God can be.
Second. I received an email from my favorite world changer,
Melissa. We were emailing back and forth about a trip to New Orleans. I emailed her letting her know that I didn't think I would be able to go. I told her that I appreciated her including me and that she's one of the most awesome people I know. I figured I'd pass on a good feeling. Why keep such thoughts to yourself when it might just be what they need to hear that day.
Well, who woulda known that it would come back to me. I swear I wasn't fishing when I told her that. Her email back to me was flattering and motivational to say the least. She shared her admiration for me, calling me grounded, highly intelligent, independent and balanced. She also implied something about my fabulousness (clearly my fave part haha). Anyway, It was one of those emails you tuck away to read on a bad day. Double points when you get it on an already rough day.
Third. A friend and former colleague from a campus job at Howard randomly sent me a gchat message saying that he read my blog post on sexual assault. He had already left a positive comment on the post, but he then proceeded to send more positivity my way. A small token, but it meant a lot.
Fourth. I met with a former manager about a presentation we were doing together, and to catch up in general. We spent some time talking about my situation at work and some personal goals I'm working on. She is my favorite person at my firm, and one of my biggest - if not
the biggest - supporters. She only ever has positive things to say, and her aura alone is peaceful. She was an open ear, provided advice, and offered encouragement. There couldn't have been a better way to end my work day.
Fifth. (I'm almost done I promise.) Close to the time I was getting ready for bed, I got a gchat message from a former mentor. He was my assigned "buddy" when I interned in NY the summer of 2006. Neither of us did a good job of keeping in touch after. I've sent him a couple emails randomly over the years, especially after he finished getting his MBA because I was trying to decide what grad degree I want to get. Well, he randomly sent me a message to see how I was doing. We agreed that we would catch up this weekend via phone. Another small thing, but one that meant a lot.
Sixth. (And final.) I checked my email before I logged offline. I began reading an email from a mentor who works in the city. She was my first of four interviewers for my current job, and we instantly connected. She played an instrumental role in me accepting my firm's offer, and although she left the company shortly after to follow her passion (went to work for a local charter school) we still communicate fairly often.
Well I reached out to her a week ago to update her on everything I've been doing. Her email response was obviously excited, but it also included the most positive thing I'd heard all day: "When I first met you during my [firm] recruiting days at Howard, I knew in my spirit that you were destined to do great things."
Now tell me that God isn't good. I don't know about you, but he never wastes any opportunities to let me know that joy
always comes in the morning.